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11:29 pm
npd_family
[eirein]
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Moving-out Aftermath
First off, apologies for the poor language. Short story is, I've moved out from N-mom for about a month (hurrah!); however, I still feel like shit; I know it's only been a month but nothing I do seems to make myself any better. I thought that by moving out and thinking cleverly about my problems and trying to deal with things feeling like shit would go away. Sadly, I still hear my mother's voice inside my head - I mean, I can't believe that I hear her voice, inside my head to begin with - and I don't know how to fight it, though I've tried everything from the butterfly hug to meditation to talking to myself like a three-year-old child. Does anyone have any tips for dealing with this?
Also, I've also been finding that I've been allowing myself to become upset at people and tell them so - e.g., "you sound like an asshole just now when you said "so what?" to my wonderful childhood - why can't you ever cut people some slack?" - and the thing that bothers me is that these people are still around after I've blown up at them. I know narcissists are different from normal people, and I've really only known narcissism, so this sort of behaviour confuses and hurts me - it makes me wish my mind would just stop and continue on once the pain has passed. Does anyone else have similar experiences to this? Feeling painful after being forgiven, I mean. I don't know what to make of it and wish I knew.
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09:36 pm
unico_love
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5 Gratitudes
1. Watching Becoming Jane
2. An email from Amber
3. Not vomiting even though I was nauseated this morning
4. Watching more The Legendary Journeys of Hercules
5. Journaling about my stress
Current Location: Living room
Current Mood:  tired
Current Music: Tori Amos - She's Your Cocaine
Tags: 5gratitudes
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09:38 pm
bkwrrm_tx
![[User Picture]](http://l-userpic.livejournal.com/87866643/737442) [Link] | FUDGE!
I just kicked my computer desk leg with - you guessed it - the mangled toe nail.
Damn, damn, damn!
Okay - that hurt.
I fed the husband, sorted out all the library books that need to go back from the ones I'm still reading (D - the ones to go back are in front of the closet in my room, in the blue bag), taken my shot and talked to the cat. I think it's time for me to take myself and some books and go to bed.
I want ice cream. :-)
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06:39 pm
yonjuunana
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OMG
We just got the keys to the townhouse!!! My room there is HUGE! I am so excited about this place. We'll actually be able to fit all our stuff in the kitchen! I'll be able to have a nicer craft area in my room, space for my sewing machine and all that!
One thing packing has made me realize: I've been really super good about not buying any more yarn for the last few months. I'm doing good with my yarn diet! However, I have a ridiculous amount of fabric (I found an entire huge box in my closet that I had forgotten about), so although I'm going to have more space in my room to put art supplies, I'm declaring a general "art supply diet" until I've reduced the number of boxes of art stuff I own by at least half. Being able to have my sewing machine out will help with that. Even though I now have more room for stuff, and I've been doing pretty decent with keeping my room clean in recent years, I'd like to go even further in the direction of clean-room-ness.
Anyway, I'll probably be pretty busy moving stuff for the next few weeks. It's going to be a really easy move, but who knows how the transition will affect me. Currently feeling pretty good, although trying to fend off another round of "omg, I'm actually allowed to live in a nice place like that?".
Current Mood:  excited
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03:42 pm
bkwrrm_tx
![[User Picture]](http://l-userpic.livejournal.com/73002803/737442) [Link] | Things I'm grateful for: (in no particular order)
My husband
Bobby pins
My LJ and the friends I've made through it.
Mexican food
Nail polish
My cats
Books
Good movies
Bad movies
Witch hazel
Diet Pepsi
Crystal Light
Medications that let me sleep
The library
My strong thighs
My dogs
Texas summers
Lemon juice
Ceiling fans
Sand between my toes
and many, many more that I would never have enough time to list.
Thank you, Universe, for all the good things you've shown me, and for the bad things that allow me to appreciate the good.
Current Mood:  thankful
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01:22 pm
rainbow_goddess
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Cat update
The cats continue to confuse me.
Poupée is back to her normal self. She accepted her injection this morning with the usual purring, she ate her food as normal, she drank half a bowl of water, and she spent some time sunning herself in the doorway of the balcony.
Chaya has not climbed up my clothes again, as far as I can tell, but she didn't sleep with me last night the way she normally does. This is very unusual, as Chaya normally sleeps with me every night. Speaking of Chaya, she is currently having a conversation with my next-door neighbour.
Calli, however, made up for Chaya not sleeping with me. Calli slept with me, almost the entire night. She'd leave for trips to the bathroom or the food bowl or the water glass, but otherwise she insisted on sleeping either next to me or on top of me the entire night. She has suddenly started behaving the way Puff used to when she was anticipating an earthquake, and she doesn't want me out of her sight. She insisted that I get up and follow her to the food bowl this morning, and while she used to do that, she hasn't done it in years.
She jumped up onto the couch with me while I was reading a book this morning, and she walked on me, went "knead, knead, purr, purr" for a minute, then walked off me, then came back and did the "knead, knead, purr, purr" thing again for another minute, then went and lay down at my feet.
When I got up off the couch to eat lunch, Calli jumped off the couch and followed me. She's now keeping an eye on me from the general vicinity of the coat closet.
Tags: calli, cats, chaya, poupee
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02:30 pm
npd_family
[cosmogirl121]
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Please help!
Hi, I really need help, I can't describe how screwed up my situation is! My mother has NPD and my dad is either a co-dependent or has BPD. I am really emotionally screwed up and unstable, I have no sense of self, my personal relationships suck, and I feel like I'm living in hell. My parents have been neglectful, but I've noticed it when I went away to college last year. They don't care, they just want to keep their image up. I went to a psychiatrist yesterday and she said I might have BPD. I'm pretty sure I do. I've had very unstable experiences in the past couple of weeks. Panic attacks, running away, etc. I would never kill myself, but I don't want to live like this anymore.
I don't want any connection with my parents anymore. They're toxic. However, that would never happen since my mother is too paranoid to ever let me leave.
I can stay at college, but it's not like I have a huge support system there. I would need something loving.
What can I do? Please help!
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12:54 pm
conuly
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An article on health care
Clicky!
( Read more... )
It gets very dry and factual and mathy midway through - if anybody could sum it up, that'd be great, I sort of glazed over even though the individual facts were interesting. (Gee, that's an incentive to read, isn't it?)
Current Mood:  apathetic
Tags: america, articles, economics, health, politics
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09:45 am
mymacsucks
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Last nights update was POINTLESS
So I'm reading the news this morning and as it turns out, Apple fucked the entire Mac family RIGHT UP THE ASS for no purpose other than to rape anyone who happened to buy a Palm Pilot instead of one of those crappy phones they offer - phones that would remain pieces of shit no matter how well Apple made them simply because they only work with the extremely crappy AT&T network.
So the reboot was really necessary as a way to disable hardware, and it was labeled as coming from the Safari part of the update instead of the iTunes part of the update to conceal the fact that this was going on. Assholes.
I miss the Apple of the late 1980s and very early 1990s that gave us awesome tools to use our Macs any way we wanted, tools like ResEdit.
Subjecting every customer to a corporate sponsored denial of service attack just for the sake of engaging in anticompetitive business practices is a fucking outrage.
Didn't Mac users used to whine and bitch that Microsoft's OS was only popular because they did this sort of crap? Next time I hear a Mac user say something like that as a means of suggesting a Mac is somehow better, I'm going to throw a fucking pie in their face, same as was done to Bill Gates back in the day.
From http://tech.yahoo.com/news/ap/20090716/ap_on_hi_te/us_tec_apple_palm_pre
SAN FRANCISCO -
Apple Inc. has shut down one of the most compelling features on Palm Inc.'s rival Pre smart phone, crippling the Pre's ability to act like an iPod.
Users of the recently released Pre had been able to put music on it by using Apple's free iTunes software — a unique twist for a device not made by Apple. But Apple updated iTunes on Wednesday to block this feature.
Apple spokesman Tom Neumayr said the update "disables devices falsely pretending to be iPods, including the Palm Pre."
Palm spokeswoman Leslie Letts said Apple's move is a "direct blow to their users, who will be deprived of a seamless synchronization experience." For a workaround, she noted, Pre owners can stick to the older version of iTunes, move music from computers to a Pre with a USB cable or consider third-party music applications.
The iTunes software smackdown is the latest example of tensions brewing between Apple and Palm, which since June has been led by the former executive behind the iPod, Jon Rubinstein. Rubinstein became Palm's executive chairman in October 2007.
The $200 Pre includes a "multi-touch" screen like Apple's iPhone, letting users do things like pinch photos to zoom in and out. Apple was granted a patent in January related to certain multi-touch functions, though the effects on Palm are unclear.
Avian Securities analyst Matthew Thornton said Apple's move to squash the Pre's iTunes function could turn off some people looking to buy the Pre, since they might have considered the device as a way to consolidate their music player and cell phone.
Still, "it's not like 10 out of every 10 people who buy a Pre are going to use the device for their MP3 player," he said.
Right. I hope someone DDoS's Apple's entire fucking domain for the next month or so. It'll keep those of us with Mac's from being attacked like this again, second, maybe it'll teach 'em a lesson. After all, It's not like 10 out of every 10 business transactions Apple conducts flow thru their website, right?
Current Mood:  sore
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09:28 am
mymacsucks
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Safari update shouldn't ever need an OS reboot.
My wife, ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) pokedexquest, was unable to access the Pokémon GTS last night because Safari - a mere web browser - requires the entire computer to be rebooted for a lousy update.
Each time, apparently. Last night, the mac never made it thru the reboot. I have no idea why but when I turned on the screen this morning, it was all grey with a spinner in the middle, same as it would be right when turned on. I thought "oh, shit", turned the mac back off and on again, and everything magically worked.
Why the fuck does a Unix workstation need to be rebooted to update a web browser? That's just fucking stupid. Its every bit as insane as Windows was before Microsoft got XP released.
Of course with the fucking "Windows Malicious Software Removal Tool" being a part of every monthly update you end up rebooting XP anyways unless you unselect it, but thats besides the point.
Apple changed OS support about a month after I purchased this machine, and I wonder.. do they make people with 10.5 reboot this often too? Or are they saving that mistreatment until OSX 10.6 comes out?
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10:08 am
upstart_crow
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Sleeping Beauty, Indeed -- reloaded!
In 2006, Torquere Press released my first ever anthology, Sleeping Beauty, Indeed, an e-book collection of 10 lesbian fairy tales by the likes of yuki_onna, erzebet, newbabel, weyrdchic, stakebait, pallid_regina, julia_talbot, kittydesade, Kori Amador and AJ Grant. It went on to be shortlisted for the Gaylaxicon Spectrum Award, as did weyrdchic,'s amazing story, "Voce," (which I think truly deserved to be in a Year's Best anthology somewhere, but that's neither here nor there).
I'm very proud of this wonderful collection, and thrilled that Lethe Press is reprinting it in both dead tree and e-book form (the latter of which is already available), complete with not only a gorgeous new cover by Toby Johnson, but a gorgeous new font. I've also corrected a few egregious typos that I somehow missed in the Torquere edition.
If you didn't buy the Torquere edition, please do pick this up. It's a fantastic book and perfect for summer time.
To celebrate Sleeping Beauty, Indeed's re-release I will also be doing a number of cool things, including a contest for a handmade necklace based on "Voce." Stay tuned for more!
Current Mood:  pleased
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11:28 pm
rainbow_goddess
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Things that made rainbow_goddess happy today
I went to Shoppers Drug Mart to pick up two prescriptions: needles and test strips. When the pharmacist handed them to me, she said, "Is there anything else you need?" I told her that I'd run out of Advair and had forgotten/procrastinated on calling my doctor to get a refill. Pharmacist said, "Oh, that's not a problem!" Smile, smile. "I can get you a refill order. Just give me ten or 15 minutes." Pharmacists in B.C. now have the authority to write prescriptions in some circumstances, and this is apparently one of them (long-term client with long-term prescription for a non-narcotic substance needing a refill.) So this made me very happy, because I'd actually cut back on my Advair to one dose a day to try to make it last longer, and my lungs were not happy about it.
While I was waiting for the prescription, I saw a paperback book on the shelf. I picked it up and read the description, and it looked like the kind of book I'd like: humour, paranormal romance, vampires. But it cost ten bucks (well, $9.99), and I really couldn't justify spending ten bucks on a book, no matter how much I wanted to read it, when I'm unemployed and trying to avoid impulse spending as much as possible. Then I remembered that I had Shoppers Optimum points saved up. I picked up a can of cat food to make sure that my total was more than ten dollars, (because the book came to one cent less than ten dollars and you can't use Optimum points on sales tax) and was able to get my book for free. Yay for free trashy-romance-vampire-paranormal books!
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07:39 pm
dot_gimp_snark
[wombathouse]
![[User Picture]](http://l-userpic.livejournal.com/12926324/2642688) [Link] | Dear Crazed Interviewers:
Ok, I don't mind that you're putting me through a battery of tests that rivals Defense Department-level clearance. This is, after all, a public safety job. I don't mind that you made me take a set of psychological tests and also asked me a bunch of intrusive questions about things that are none of your damn business.
I do mind that you made me take these tests at a small temporary facility which has no elevator, told me in the email that I had to enter at the back but didn't tell me that entrance requires going up a flight of stairs, then made me go down the stairs inside and then back up and down them again later for no good reason. Especially when there's a flat entry to the same room we worked in RIGHT OUTSIDE THE OTHER DOOR.
Today, I'm limping worse than I have in over a year. Now part of that's my fault, cause I've let my daily exercise, which was strengthening my knees, slip since I got laid off. My bad.
But you're testing me for a job that requires SITTING DOWN ALL DAY. Are you trying to weed out candidates who might cost you money in medical expenses later, or are you just freaking oblivious?
No love,
me.
Current Mood:  cranky
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07:58 pm
possibilities
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Life et al.
I had one of those moments at work yesterday. Those moments when you realize -- really, really realize -- that you don't enjoy your life.
My manager has made it a team goal to find me a hobby. Why?
Tuesday, yesterday, I had plans to go to a midnight showing of Harry Potter, after which I would need to sleep in. I have flexible hours, but decided to use banked hours from Friday* sleep in, then leave work at my normal time.
My manager pushed me to take all of today off. I have more than enough banked hours to do so. I wouldn't! I'd wake up at 10am, and then I'd have the rest of the day to myself. What would I do? I don't know. I cannot think of a single enjoyable thing to do with an entire day off in the middle of the week. I admitted that I even get annoyed on weekends with the lack of job.
So they have a goal of finding me a hobby so that I can, you know, take time off work and not be miserable.
I did sleep in today. I slept almost 50 minutes later than normal. I woke up to a work dream. I forced myself to sleep for another 30 minutes, during which I dreamed... about work. I did not use even the full amount of banked time I'd intended to use, because my brain obviously wanted to be at work.
All I have in my life is a job that, while good, is not something I love. I have work, and I have a straight 48 hours each week feeling lost.
This is not enjoying my life.
*I adore working late on Fridays! It makes my weekend shorter and less lonely. My coworkers have been known to have to literally chase me out of the office when they decide that I've stayed late enough.
Current Mood:  cold
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08:40 pm
unico_love
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5 Gratitudes +1
1. Reading Francesca Lia Block's The Waters and the Wild
2. Reading the first volume of The Shinji Ikari Raising Project
3. Watching Prince Caspian
4. Watching more of The Legendary Journeys of Hercules
5. My mother buying a plug thing for the bathtub so Michael can take baths here again
6. My mother having potential improvements open up for her financial situation.
Current Location: Glen Ellyn, IL
Current Mood: calm
Current Music: Tori Amos - Angie
Tags: 5gratitudes
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03:10 pm
gypsyjr
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Somebody freaking hire me already.
( You are about to view content that may not be appropriate for minors. )
Current Mood:  blah
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05:00 pm
conscience
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SALE on GREAT STUFF!
( You are about to view content that may not be appropriate for minors. )
Current Mood:  artistic
Tags: gorgeous finds
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01:54 pm
rainbow_goddess
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I sense a disturbance in the force
I don't know if that big earthquake off New Zealand has affected my cats all the way over on this side of the ocean, or if we're going to get our own earthquake here, or if it's just too warm for their liking, or what, but my cats have been behaving very oddly today.
First of all, Poupée refused her insulin injection. Normally she likes her injection. I pet her, talk to her, tell her she's a good kitty, and do the injection. Then I pet her and talk to her some more and tell her she's a good kitty again. She loves the attention, and she purrs. But today she wouldn't let me come anywhere near her with the needle. So she hasn't had her insulin today. So far it doesn't seem like there have been any dire consequences; her water bowl is still half-full, so her blood sugar must not be too high. Either that or she has just gotten used to having high blood sugar.
Then we have Chaya kitty. She decided to go into my bedroom closet and try to climb up the skirts hanging in there. I scolded her for it three separate times before she finally left the bedroom. Then she went into the living room and decided to scratch the couch instead, which she almost never does because she has multiple choices for scratching implements.
Finally, we have Calli, who started a fight with Chaya while I was eating lunch. I had to separate them because one of them squawked. I don't know which one.
WTF is with my cats today? Puff used to predict earthquakes when she was alive, but she didn't behave badly when she did so. She just followed me around, meowed a lot, and refused to let me out of her sight until the earthquake had passed.
Tags: Poupée, calli, cats, chaya
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04:06 pm
dances_withcats
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Writer's Block: 5//7//5
O, effluvia
Befouling my bathroom air.
Waste pump: waste of space
Current Mood:  annoyed
Tags: writer's block
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01:54 pm
bkwrrm_tx
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Writer's Block: Dream Vacations
Anchorage, of course.
Another cruise, but this time with the husband, so he can see what I've been gushing about for the last 3 years.
If we were to hit the lottery, then I'd do a lot of CONUS travel - see family in Ohio again, visit LJ friends, etc.
Heck, one of these days I'd like to finally get to have a honeymoon. :-)
Tags: dream vacations 5, intel, intel sponsors of tomorrow, writer's block
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06:49 pm
redshira
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It's as if CCD isn't even happening!
WHY WOULD YOU TRY TO KILL BEES
ESPECIALLY IF YOU'RE THE SORT OF PERSON WHO SUBSCRIBES TO A "NATURAL LIVING" COMMUNITY
BEES. ARE NOT FOR KILLING. MY FUCK. AT LEAST GET SOMEONE TO FIGURE OUT WHAT SORT OF BEES THEY ARE BEFORE YOU TRY AND FUCKING KILL THEM.
skjrghesgkueah;UJHREGJ;SERJGEGjKJRK
In other news, the Oxegen festival was a pile of fail. I left a comment in gothhippiegrrl's LJ about it, ( and I may as well reproduce it here; be warned, it's long )
In other other news, I am unreasonably excited about going to see the new Harry Potter film, despite knowing that I will want to throw things at the screen at certain points. I can't go until Friday night at the earliest because every ticket within a 30 mile radius is booked, but EEEEEEE.
I have an appointment with a neurologist tomorrow, which will hopefully a) be the start of getting some control over my migraines, which really are the worst part of being me because they ruin almost everything and prevent me from doing nearly anything b) go better than the fucking awful endocrinologist appointment I had last week which was so unspeakably awful that I'm going to write a letter of complaint. The woman was dismissive, ignorant, arrogant, fatphobic, hostile, didn't bloody listen, and TOUCHED MY HEAD (scrabbling about in my hair) without asking first and then tried to make out that I was in the wrong when I freaked out. I'd go into details but it needs its own post, really, and I might make that post when I've written the complaint letter. James said he was tempted to ask her "Are you a real doctor?" I wish he had. He's been referred to the Marfan clinic in Dublin which means HOORAY he will get proper treatment and we will have a better idea of when he needs heart surgery (he has a dilated aortic root and a leaky mitral valve).
I miss being able to talk to people on IM. Our dodgy mobile modem interwebs is terrible and the connection drops at least once every five minutes, sometimes more like twice a minute, so the only chat I can use is Facebook Chat, and even that keeps cutting out.
I must apologise again (and explain to the newer people on my flist) for not being great at answering comments. Migraine is worse than ever, and connection is dodgy, and fibro thoroughly kicks my arse on a regular basis, and I am basically just rubbish at replying. However, I do make a very tasty clafouti, which I would never have thought to try had it not been mentioned several times by ailbhe, so thank you ailbhe*!.
*for some reason I really like typing the name "ailbhe"
Tags: bees, crap doctors, disability, ffs, james, marfan syndrome, oxegen fail
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01:01 pm
bkwrrm_tx
![[User Picture]](http://l-userpic.livejournal.com/86290062/737442) [Link] | The first preview of the new HOUSE season -
::squeee::
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
In other news, being a klutz and wanging up my toe means that everything I try to do today has become more difficult. I especially don't recommend trying to shower and DROPPING THE SHAMPOO BOTTLE ON THE STUPID TOE.
I don't need a husband - I need a freaking keeper. ::sigh::
At least this time, the blood just washed down the drain. I'm thinking a shower chair might be a good investment for myself, too.
Current Mood:  stupid!
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10:54 am
bkwrrm_tx
![[User Picture]](http://l-userpic.livejournal.com/87866928/737442) [Link] | ::whimper::
I just busted my big toe nail and have blood not-quite-gushing out from under it.
I fell down, and caught it and bent it back about 1/2 inch down.
OUCH!
The bleeding is stopping, and I've rinsed it in the shower but I think that other than hobbling to the kitchen to stir dinner once in awhile, I'm done for the day.
Being a klutz is HIGHLY over-rated.
>:~(
ETA: Dang it, now I've got to mop the kitchen floor, because there's a blood trail out there. Grrrrrr.
Current Mood:  in pain
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09:44 am
bkwrrm_tx
![[User Picture]](http://l-userpic.livejournal.com/87971601/737442) [Link] | Dinner tonight - Cajun chicken stew over rice.
Dinner tomorrow - leftovers, because I just can not cook for 2 people.
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02:19 pm
gimp_vent
[patchworkcherry]
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I have FIBROMYALGIA, and it SUCKS ASS.
( I have FIBROMYALGIA, and it SUCKS ASS. )</div></div>
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10:26 pm
unico_love
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5 Gratitudes
1. Oreo ice cream from downtown Glen Ellyn
2. Watching more Hercules: The Legendary Journeys
3. Looking at Tori Amos merchandise for the tour
4. Reading Obsessive Compulsive Disorder Demystified
5. Michael feeling well
Current Location: computer desk
Current Mood:  sleepy
Tags: 5gratitudes
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10:35 pm
youngwizards
[atrypical]
![[User Picture]](http://l-userpic.livejournal.com/17436198/1136382) [Link] | It's lucky I'm still in New York City tonight, or I might have missed this Young Wizards-related news story.
( Cut for Deep Wizardry spoilers, I suppose? )
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10:05 pm
dot_gimp_snark
[jayz_grrrl]
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Don't mock the OTHER gimps, either!
The fact that no one here has any form of palsy does not make it OK for you, the instructor, to make jokes about "wouldn't it be funny if we were like this all the time" and "don't do this on the bus" after finishing the exercises where we shake our muscles out.
I KNOW it's a pain clinic, but it's still not funny to make fun of other gimps.
I made a horrified comment about it not being funny, and the instructor and I had a little chat after class about things. It was my first day at the chronic pain class, so we'll see how it goes... not an auspicious beginning.
ALSO, guy, it's a good idea to ask people before touching them, even if you are correcting their stance. (something to talk about next time - I have a feeling that I'm a whole new breed of participant for this place - political, queer, left, and not at all quiet the way a girl is supposed to be)
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04:02 pm
rainbow_goddess
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Writer's Block: Le Quatorze Juillet
Je ne peux pas penser d'une réponse à cette question maintenant. Peut-etre plus tard. J'aime la langue, mais j'ai oublié beaucoup.
Tags: writer's block
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03:49 pm
yonjuunana
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Just wondering
If multiplicity is the experience of having more than one mind in a body, and soulbonding is a subset of multiplicity that involves feeling an intense connection to a fictional character, feeling their presence, talking to them, etc... As an atheist, I believe god is fictional. So does this mean that some ridiculously large percentage of the Earth's population has soulbonded God, and is therefore on the multiple spectrum?
Current Mood:  probably going to hell
Current Music: Spiritualized - Feel So Sad
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06:33 pm
dianawynnejones
[spellcoats]
![[User Picture]](http://l-userpic.livejournal.com/1896425/466132) [Link] | In light of recent news, what does everyone say about sending Diana a get well card?
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04:13 pm
gimpgirl
[paidiraiompair]
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Like an old pair of shoes...
So, yesterday was the first for dance class with Full Radiance. I was coming off of 3 full days at MART and four hours prior. Needless to say I was exhausted but also happy to doing something that, once upon a time, was so normal.
For those who don't know, it is a combo troop, with everything from AB, to bi-peds to "wheelies". It began with a good long stretch out. I watched myself in the wall mirrors and felt my heart sink a bit. Even with all my work out for the last three months and watching my diet, I still felt HUGE and oh so uncoordinated. I kept trying to watch the folks in front of me, but would get confused looking at the person versus the reflection of them. The easiest rountines seemed to be processed backwards in my head. Nearing the end of that part, I was forcing back that feeling of tears and wanting to run away home. I'm tougher than this, I reminded myself.
Yet, as the class progressed, I gravitated toward the newer in the class, and though the teacher goes through the routines fast, I tried to forget "watching" myself. I won't say I got much better, but I can say it began to felt fun, and in a way, familiar. I was NEVER quick on intial up take of new dance steps, even with two legs, I reminded myself again. Then, nearing the end, the instructor used me as the "demo" on our first lesson of bi-ped to wheelie "spin"...and that's when it happened. For one moment, the feeling of movement, the feeling of beautiful fluidity was suddenly there, and in me. I know my smile cracked even the hard exterior of the "pros" around me.
So after a good catch up day of sleep, I am soon off for night two. Not sure where if anywhere, this all will lead, but atleast it's a "step" and isn't that how any journey begins??
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12:36 pm
upstart_crow
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Back from Readercon!
Home, the cat's being extra cuddlesome, and the damn computer is, of course, freaking me out and pissing me off majorly.
Had a great time and met a lot of fun new people, and many great longstanding friends. More when I've caught up with work.
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12:59 pm
conuly
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Taken from multiple sources
So, over at Conservative Free Republic they have a forum. Lots of places have forums.
And over there, occasionally they have people making and commenting with objectionable matter. Lots of forums have that problem.
And hey, there it's racist and people are attacking the President's young daughters, which is abhorrent. Okay... it happens... but hey, their policy forbids racist content! (And anything which advocates for rebellion and secession as well.) So you'd think that they'd deal with that fast before it made them look bad... right?
Well... no, don't make me laugh. They waited a day, and then only removed it because a guy doing research made a complaint. And... then they put it back up, only removing it for good once liberal blogs got a hold of this.
Link one
Link two
Link three.
Now, everybody is commenting on the vicious comments left about the President's kids, which is as it should be. Attacking anybody's young children (and 11 is still young) with slurs and misogyny (as well as racism and some basic classism, they've hit the trifecta there) is wrong, that goes without saying.
But what gets me is the comment about Obama's Mother-in-Law, that she's "free-loadin'". I've heard that before, but without the overt racist subtext, and it makes no sense to me, firstly because she is, as I'm told, there to help keep things normal for her grandkids, and second because she's seventy-one! Seventy-one! What sort of family values allow you to insult people for taking care of their parents? If she were sitting around doing nothing, isn't she entitled? Surely, after 71 years, she gets to rest and be with her family? (Well, I suppose those are the same family values that tell you it's okay to insult defenseless 11 year old girls who haven't even done anything.)
Some choice comments ( cut for offensiveness )
Current Mood:  upset
Tags: america, articles, politics, race
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12:21 pm
bkwrrm_tx
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Answers to the questions I asked yesterday
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04:25 am
bwc1976
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LoudTwitter?
um, why did the last 2 days worth of Twitter posts not get posted here? At least one day's worth should definitely be up by now.
Current Mood:  aggravated
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04:04 am
bwc1976
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Writer's Block: Le Quatorze Juillet
Concorde and the Dassault Falcon 50, two of the most beautiful civilian jet airplanes ever.
Jean-Michel Jarre and Jean-Jacques Perrey, two great pioneers of electronic music.
Indochine, an 80's new wave band that most Americans have probably never heard of.
Current Mood:  busy
Tags: writer's block
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06:52 pm
gimp_vent
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Save me from the institutions designed to help me.
Today 7/13, I received two envelopes from Medicaid.
One contained a letter re: my application for Medicaid from 6/15. It informed me that I had not submitted enough information, and that they needed my bank records, ID copies, credit check, fingerprints, blood sample, firstborn child or pet, et cetera, to complete my application. (My clinic had told me to get the application in anyway, as Medicaid would send me this letter, and the clinic worker wanted my coverage to start as soon as possible to cover my medical bills.)
This letter informs me sternly that I must get them this information by 6/27 or they will deny my claim.
The other envelope, naturally, contained a letter saying they were denying my claim because they hadn't received that information by their due date of 6/27.
Both envelopes are postmarked 7/11.
Apparently a time machine is necessary to apply for Medicaid! Wow, that'll trim the Medicaid budget, won't it?
If I had a time machine, I'd be getting lottery numbers, not Medicaid.
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12:03 am
tlhinganhom
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Short Story: Bailey
Bailey
Not quite deep in the forest, but far enough into the thickness of the trees that one, ill-informed, might mistakenly think it deep, dwelled an unassuming little house, almost a cottage, with an equally modest little garden all around it, and a humble little fence around that. In this house lived no one royal, magical or scandalous in any way, as far as Bailey could tell. No, it was just she and her mother, who left every morning to go to work, and returned home every evening as the sun sank on the horizon, smeared with grease and sweat and wanting nothing more than to get off her feet, sit down with her little daughter, and braid her hair into pigtails. During the day, Bailey would work on her studies, do her chores and prepare supper, or play outside in the garden. She never dared venture beyond the little fence that surrounded the garden, for her mother had warned her not to. Indeed, as she kissed her young daughter goodbye in the morning twilight, she would repeat, "I love you, my little Bailey, but don't leave the garden while I'm gone, or your legs are likely to fall off and you'll never see your dear mother who loves you ever again."
"I love you too, Mom." Bailey would reply, the unquestioning love known only to children welled up in her eyes. And she would stand there in the doorway and wave as her mother disappeared down the concrete path for another day. So it went, day to day, that this was and had always been their life. Bailey knew nothing else, and did not question it. But, all that said, and is perhaps as to be expected, she was at times awfully bored!
After a while, it became common for Bailey to sit outside, in the garden, and talk to the birds that flew back and fourth over the little fence just as much as they pleased. She didn't speak bird, of course, and much the same didn't understand a word of it, but that didn't stop her from tweet-tweet-tweeting away her afternoons. The birds, for their part, seemed to enjoy her company as well, as they began, one or two at a time, to perch on the garden's trellis, waiting for the girl to finish her chores and come out to join them. Bailey imagined her little friends telling her all about the exciting, exotic places and people outside the confines of the fence, the trees and the boundary of her own memory. For all she knew, that was exactly what they were doing.
There eventually came a time when the little girl simply could no longer contain her own curiosity. She just had to leave the safety of the garden and explore the world, even if it was only a little bit of the world. Her mother would never have to know, she reasoned, and anything was bound to be more interesting than spending another afternoon sitting outside her boring house in her boring garden! So, one day, as her mother kissed her goodbye, and voiced for what seemed like the millionth time her warning: "don't leave the garden while I'm gone, or your legs are likely to fall off and you'll never see your dear mother who loves you ever again," Bailey made the most important, but scariest decision of her life. Today she would disobey her mother. Today, she would go exploring.
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Current Mood:  accomplished
Tags: 2009, misc writing, short stories
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11:16 pm
unico_love
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5 Gratitudes +1
1. Watching Hercules: The Legendary Journeys with Michael.
2. Bike riding with Michael.
3. Michael buying me raspberry cheesecake ice cream.
4. Reading a helpful book called Break the Bipolar Cycle
5. Paper journaling again
6. Buspar, for working so well when Klonopin won't
Current Location: Living room
Current Mood:  cheerful
Tags: 5gratitudes
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10:33 pm
conuly
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So you know I've been reading OotS lately.
SO glad he finished the recent arc, so I'm not refreshing every 5 minutes anymore!
( Spoilery rant! )
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Current Mood:  amused
Tags: books, order of the stick, thoughts
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10:21 pm
conuly
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I saw the *weirdest* sign on a restaurant on Broadway today.
That's Broadway in Lower Manhattan. I was heading to the boat to go home, and I see this Chinese restaurant. I couldn't see the whole sign at once, it sort of revealed itself to me as I walked.
Now In Elt
Now In Eltin
Now In Eltingv
Eltingville? Eltingville, Staten Island? NO WAY. No *way* any place in Manhattan is gonna advertise that - right? There's gotta be another Eltingville out there.
I take one last look before I head the rest of the way to the boat.
Now in Eltingville, S.I.
Huh. So it is. Surreal, I tell ya!
Current Mood: shocked
Tags: daily stuff, nyc, staten island, thoughts
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07:09 pm
bkwrrm_tx
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1. What thing do you never run out of:
1a. In your fridge
1b. In your cupboards.
1c. In your bathroom.
2. What is your favorite sandwich?
3. If you had to spend $50,000 and have nothing physical to show for it, and you only had 1 week to do it, what would you do?
4. What was your biggest fear as a child?
5. Who would play you in the move adaptation of your life? Who would play your SO?
6. Name one book you will never read again.
7. If you were forced to move from the area you live in, with all expenses paid and a guaranteed job, what part of the country would you live in?
8. Do you want to ask me something? Now is your time. No questions? Just a comment, then.
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07:49 pm
ksdgypsy
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Madness
"Madness takes its toll. Please have exact change." ~Author Unknown
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06:25 pm
youngwizards
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Not Really a Crossover Plotbunny, Just Something I've Been Wondering
Superman has a facility with language. He speaks all human languages fluently, and writes for a living.
He also has proven, at least once, that he is willing to die in the line of duty.
Magic is also one of his weaknesses.
So, if he had been offered the Oath as a (pre-)teenager, and had taken it, could he kick his own butt?
And would he be able to convince kryptonite not to hurt him?
And I still need a YW icon.
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04:18 pm
old_cutter_john
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Movie
_wind_spirit_ and I just watched Casablanca for the first time. Impressive!
Current Location: home
Current Mood: contemplative
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03:03 pm
rainbow_goddess
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Woot!
Just found out that an old employer of mine for whom I was a temp for a year back about five years or so ago is now hiring full-time for almost the exact same job I did for them part-time five years ago. I hope they still remember me, and I hope they remember me positively, because I'm applying ASAP.
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09:29 pm
farraige
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мифы народов Европы.
Мне повезло родиться и вырасти в благословенном крае, родящем баклажаны и перцы, дикий виноград и лопающиеся от сухого волжского зноя составные массивные помидоры, гранатово-бурое бычье сердце, терпкие до спазма за ухом и шелковые на ощупь, клубнику с кулак ростом и черную владимирскую вишню, пряную, как тамаринд, гвоздика и мускат; и водянистой черешни мне даже не предлагайте. Почти все, что росло на деревьях, мы объедали как козы, куда дотянемся, хоть горький полосатый анис, хоть сливу, хоть любовь всей моей жизни, нежную пьяную иргу, натираемую до драгоценного блеска об залячканную чернильным соком майку, каждую ягоду об себя, и смотришь, у кого сильнее блестит.
Мои земляки не понимают пресного салата, он пересыпан до малахитовой пестроты кинзой, стрельчатым луком, укропом и лиловыми кляксами базилика, молодая картошка для нас неразделима с укропьими зонтиками, в заварном чайнике, помимо чая, царски преют смородиновый лист и мелисса... И вот скоро уже двенадцать лет как я веду хозяйство с человеком, не терпящим зелени вообще. Никакой, низачем. Ни в суп, ни в салат, ни в картошку -- разве что в лобио незаметно замешать и надеяться на лучшее. Нет, мы как вид очень гибки, излишне гибки, думаю я порой -- открываем шлюзы для безжалостной эксплуатации этой гибкости -- привыкнем ко всему, привыкнем готовить разное и смешивать салаты в отдельных мисках, хлеб у каждого свой, разное масло, в двух кастрюлях автономное клокочет, double, double, toil and trouble.
Но ведь есть ангел, и ангел старается и норовит угодить, на то он и в перьях, и трогательно дарит диковинную ступку с пестиком из кремового керрийского мрамора, такую обманчиво-миниатюрную на ошалело увесистый вид, ты же любишь готовить, и в этой ступке я грамотно толку кумин, фенхель и тмин, бросив для горечи щепотку сухого, взрывчатого горчичного семени, и постепенно холодный камень начинает полыхать мне в лицо бахчой и каленым степным ветром, бьющим наотмашь -- травы приглашают, приглашают заболеть, помнишь, Денис? Я стираю крупитчатую неровную смесь, вдавливая ноющую лунку в гнездо ладони, и начинаю потихоньку кое-что понимать, хохоча все громче и громче.
Такую штуку от заморского жителя принимаешь с честной благодарностью, надо же, какая вещь красивая и как удружил, и даже задуматься не помедлишь. А вот от славянина ступку с пестиком в дар принять было бы, я думаю, невозможно совершенно, на что это ты мне еще намекаешь.
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02:22 pm
conuly
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Here's an article on free-ranging kids, though the author doesn't call it that
It's unusual in that the comments are worth reading.
One that stands out starts thusly:
Teaching in a comm. college, I find that younger students are typically unable to describe the neighborhood they grew up in. Some say they still don't know their own neighborhoods beyond the back yard. Older adults have strong sensory memories of their childhood neighborhoods, and usually enjoy recounting those places, people, and games.
That? That is terrifying.
The kids on this block aren't growing up like that, most of them, which is a great relief to me. Annoying as the local kids are at times, I'd rather see them outside playing than stuck inside all day.
Current Mood: thankful
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10:38 am
deathweasel
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Busy last 7 days or so update of doom
I'm sorry for not posting artwork or "real updates". I've pretty much only updated Facebook via Twitter. I spent an entire week being social and doing all sorts of things I don't normally do. I have some art trade pencils to put up before I mess them up with ink.
Ugh, I get to go back through ORD again...
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